Learning Never Ends

There is a sim in Second Life where I enjoy spending a good deal of time, and it is one of the few places that can tempt me away from my own fantasy-inspired home:  Journey to Domination and Submission, on Caerwyn Phyrrus.  Genny Clary and Klaudia Sparta are the talented and visionary women behind this well-thought-out project.  And Klaudia's Master, TonyGreg Sparta, is one of the most compelling people I have ever met, and it is he who suggested that I avail myself of what the place has to offer.  I have done a great deal of observation and question-posing, and from what I can gather these people really have their ducks in a row.  (Literally.  The neat rows of ducks swim in the ponds without any chaotic mis-formation.)

There's a great observation deck on the lighthouse where you can see all the land.  There is a dancefloor.  There is an extensive library.  There is a warehouse.  There is a maze.  There is a "noob" area full  of freebies that will get a new avatar up on her/his feet to face the journey ahead.  (It's always nice to face the journey with good hair, right?  That's where all my money goes...)  There is a bath house.  There are grounds to wander.  There is fishing to be had.  There are, as previously mentioned, ducks in a row.  There is a really sweet little swing-set too, which (rather than infantalizing) really sets a person free.  It is a good feeling to swing.  It is a good feeling, too, to examine why the pleasure feels so good.

It's an interesting visual metaphor, to me.  In a swing, my feet are off the ground.  Something else supports me.  I feel free, and yet I am inextricably connected to the swing (otherwise I'll fall and hurt myself).  I hold on with my own strength; and the swing moves me with its own momentum.  I am at the swing's mercy; I consented to being there, riding higher and higher and higher, but the swing controls the arc of the motion.  The swing controls the breathless, exhilarating feeling in me.  I hold on, and the swing knows what to do!
The swing reminds me of my submissive urges.  (It's not my Master... but it cradles me in my beginnings and takes me higher, if I want to go.)  I have not yet submitted to anybody; I'm still learning.  I'm forever learning...  I'm exploring how it feels to surrender.  I'm exploring how it feels to live among people who live this lifestyle.  I'm exploring how it feels to consider new ideas about my own inner core.  It's an awakening to understand something new about myself.   The J2D sim is a very good, very safe, very helpful and resource-packed place to learn and explore.  I'm really grateful it's here.